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I've been trying to lose weight this summer. I officially gained about 15 lbs. this year, but really, I've been about 20 lbs. over my normal happy weight. Funny enough, I've been to my annual doctor's visits where they pretty much act like it's not a big deal and that I should just run more, but even if I don't, I'm still at an okay weight to them. I on the other hand have been like, "Um, do I have to get obese for someone to maybe even say that I might need to start watching my weight?"

Oh weight, it's a tricky little friend and it seems to come on so deliciously easy. But don't trust it. Fight it's advances! It is a good friend for awhile, but then trying to lose it is brutal! BRUTAL. I think part of the reason I let the weight go so much is because I know the sort of discipline it takes to lose weight.

So far, I've lost 10 lbs. this summer! I'm determined to lose 5 more lbs. by early August. And I'm just so dang mad about the fact that 10 lbs. less means that I am looking at a number on the scale that use to be my ultimate high. Usually that number use to be the ceiling for me. Seeing that number would have put me on the treadmill in a minute during my 20's. Now, I am celebrating this number! What the what? It's an odd experience. I can even tell that I'm a bit willing to see this new weight as the new norm and give up on losing more....BUT NOOOOoooo! There is still a bit of my mind that keeps reminding that losing weight now is a much better idea than just letting myself keep gaining 5 lbs. every couple of years.

Okay...so all that to say...most of my summer has been about watching my calories. I'm not doing weight watchers because I can't afford that and be able to spend money on decorating the house. I'm a fake weight watcher. I try to count the calories that I eat and am watching how many I am running off.

Right now, my most favorite dessert has been these Dark Chocolate Raspberry Bars from WeightW! Divine! Only 90 calories per bar! Thank you! I've tried one other weight watchers dessert this summer ....and unlike this delicious bar...it tasted like cardboard and diet-y. I promise, these DO NOT! I highly recommend them. Not only will you feel like you are eating a decadent dessert, you will have gotten your fix of chocolate and still wake up with less weight on you in the morning!